right now very sad staying at home because i was being force to be a "good" girl..trust me..i am going to hate you for life..because what you are doing and saying now really makes me feel like getting married right now at this very second or minute or maybe even tomorrow which i wouldn't mind at all..it is because at least i can free from all those stupid restrictions that you have and lead a happy life with DB everyday and also without any worries..YES!!!that is the kind of life that i wanted to have..start smiling the moment i open my eyes and give DB good morning kiss every morning..enjoying doing whatever things that we want without any restrictions or curfew..wouldn't that be nicer???

AND NOT waking up everyday wondering what "songs" you going to start singing when i step out of my room..DON'T YOU KNOW THAT WHAT YOU ARE DOING WILL SPOIL MY DAY AND MAKES ME EVEN MORE SICK OF YOU?? i guess you will never able to understand what i thinking because you are always living in your own world assuming that you are always right and making lots of assumption based on your own thinking without any ground proof or evidence..what happen in your generation will not happen again if you did not repeat it. but looks like you are trying to let history be repeated and want me to lead the life that you have lead in the past which i find it very unfair to me..everyone else in the family has their own rights to decide what they want and what they want to do..but i was never given the chance.does that consider biasness?other than that..it seem that only my life is filled with so many restriction while the rest does not..i have curfews..i cant go to any chalet even not staying over night..i cant stay over night outside..i cant have the freedom to choose what course and school i want to attend..i cant have any rights to decide what i want..seriously i find it useless for me to stay at home everytime i think about all this..i really find it meaningless staying at home during weekend and for now even weekdays..mainly because i get rantings for no reason..and i wouldn't get to rest most of the time..AT LEAST IF I AM NOT AT HOME, i still can happily spending every minutes and seconds with DB without any worries and we can just enjoy in the world of our own..i find it more meaningful and i feel happier in that way.. sometime i just don't understand why when many parents want their children to be happy and yet my parents seem to feel happy letting me suffer all this which they think that is happy only? Db say that we have to become parents le then we will understand how parents think..YES i CANT DENY THAT..but definitely we should always let our children to be happy and not tailoring their life to suit us..instead, tailoring their life to what suits them the best and what is best for their development..